used to celebrates christmas with you,, i still misses you.. how are you.. may you have a blessfull christmas.. i miss you so badly.. iloveyou merry christmas...

hey its been so long since we had a talk then... I wonder how are you... what has been you up to.. The last news I’d heard from a common friend you were dating someone else.. hey I’m glad you’re starting to move on but syempre it hurts on my part that you were actually dating someone else well inasahan ko na naman time will come makakahanap ka ng iba I just did not expect na ganto kabilis but then I’m still happy for you.. I want you to be happy coz you deserve to be

Just like you I’m trying to live as normal as it can be.. I’m starting to make new friends making conversation with others trying to open up to them I also go out na din watch movies, eat alone reconcile with old friends and enemies lolz! I’m trying to do things I’m dont used to do but still I can feel... a part of me still missing… I miss you… I know I messed up everything, the fault was on me and no one is there to blame but me If only I had the power of a time traveler I would go back to April 30 2011 the day I broke up with you... And instead of saying those words I would rather hug you tight and tell you how much I love you but I don’t have the power maybe that’s why I do feel miserable now, with out you in my life is like a cotton candy puro void space I've never heard Silence quite this Loud I miss your voice your kakaibang tawa, I miss every little things about you and what hurts the most is missing you is all I can do… I wanted to call you kaya lng ngdadalawang isip ako kse I know you don’t want to talk to me saka bakit pa ok kna eh ayoko na guluhin ka pa ulit… nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi bkit hindi nlng kaya pede magsisisi ka muna bago ka mgdecide oh well life is really a matter of choice and I am here because I choose this… time will come who knows magkabungguan tyo sa isang lugar sana kilala mo pa ko non

Ingatan mo lagi sarili mo…someday you’ll find someone to love you... wag mu gawin sa knya yung ginawa ko syo you know why? Coz that would be the most awe full things na magagawa mo... So long then… goodbye for now...

the saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you... 

 

Itong awiting ito
Ay alay sayo
Sintunado man tong
Mga pangako sayo
Ang gusto ko lamang
Makasama kang tumanda

Patatawanin kita
Pag hindi ka masaya
Bubuhatin kita
Pag nirayuma ka na
O kay sarap isipin
Kasama kang tumanda

Ibibili ng balot
Pag mahina na tuhod
Ikukuha ng gamot
Pag sumakit ang likod
O kay sarap isipin
Kasama kang tumanda

Sasamahan kahit kailanman
Mahigit kumulang di mabilang
Tatlumpung araw sa isang buwan
Umabot man tayo sa three thousand one
Sasamahan kahit kailanman
Mahigit kumulang di mabilang
Tatlumpung araw sa isang buwan
Umabot man tayo sa three thousand one

Loves na love parin kita
Kahit bungi bungi ka na
Para akin ikaw parin
Ang pinagwapong papa
O kay sarap isipin
Kasama kang tumanda

At nangangako sayo
Pag sinagot mong oo
Iaalay sayo buong puso ko
Sumangayon ka lamang
Kasama kang tumanda

days of countdown... Now ko lang talaga nararamdaman na aalis kna.. And I‘m starting to miss you.. I don’t know why.. I don’t need to tell you this.. Nasanay na ako na andyan ka.. ngayon kailngan ko ulit mgsanay na wala ka..

 

How I wish I can tell you how important you’ve become.. sa maikling panahon na andyan ka nagging masaya ko… you were someone I've lerned to care for.. I know i must not feel this, but can you tell me how can i be able to control how I feel.. for so many times sinubukan ko iwasan ka pero para kng magnet kse.. nakakaasar talaga.. 

Reality bites i guess.. The fact that you and I became friends, you and her have past and me and her are friends took me a hundred steps backward.. I should be ignoring this from the very first start.. I’m sorry for i cant control myself.. Even i really do not understand what exactly is happening to me.. 

I remember 2-3 years ago when I first stepped in this company.. I didn’t notice you. Well maybe we’re both on the other ends and I got busy with my trainings or maybe wala lang talaga ko paki alam sa mga tao sa paligid ko.. The first time I set my attention on you was lunch time.. Someone invited us to join you guys for lunch and of all the people on that table you were the only one who caught my attention

For how many times we’ve shared table for lunch but what was funny we never really had a talk nor exchanged some words. 2^nd time was when our batch joined your lecture.. I don’t know what’s with you that made me feel so fascinated

You we’re so tahimik, timid and simple, you rarely wear make ups.. Lipstick yeah.. di ka mahilig magayos tamang suklay ka lng lagi with awesome scent.. you look pretty much smart not just that you are really smart, di ka maporma nothing much bongga pero my dating.. Yeah I admit.. You were someone I used to like, you we’re someone I used to admire and someone I used and need to ignore for some reason..

 

She asked me bkit ikaw daw ang sinagot ko sa tanong nya na nararamdaman ko na katulad naming, I told her its not the looks.. Actually I was just hoping kse nararamdamn ko.. and im attracted to you I’ve never been attracted that much to a straight sa lalaki lang at sa tulad ko lang at naramdamn ko lng ng you and her had something beyond friendship so I need to stay out of the way.. Ignoring everything would be the best thing left for me to do.. everytime na nakikita kita walang imik nakahood walang kibo gsto ko mag iwan ng notes sa table mo kaya lng alam ko na lalo lng kayo mgaaway pag gnawa ko yon saka she is my friend I should be the one comforting her..

 

 That day.. the day I saw you crying.. nagalit ako sa kanya pero I knowi don’t have anything to do with it.. seeing you crying in front of me and the fact na wala ko magawa kundi tumayo at umupo sa tabi mo is like sampal sakin.. I’m caught between a friend and someone I like.. hindi ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko para mapatahan ka.. hindi ko din alm kung ano gagawin ko para kumalma ka I really wanted to hug you kaya lang hindi ko makakilos my body stood still nanginig lng yung tuhod ko I cant stand seeing you crying ang bigat sa dibdib kaya lumabas nlng ko at iniwan ka, sunod na nramdamn ko yung galit na yon is yung kinuwento mo sakin kung pano k nya sinasaktan.. I just cant believe na ngagawa nya sayo yon.

Now i was given the chance na mapalapit syo.. bkit mas nahirapan ako..

For a different reason do I need to ignore you again or do I need to tell you this time..

Maybe I just need to keep this all to myself for you were more important than what I feel.. I would rather chose to admire you in silent than loosing you pag sinabi ko syo.. 

i'll just ignore and pretend nothing is happening.. but dont stay too close coz i cant promise you anything.. i might grab you and never let go...

Ok na ko looking at you from a distance..  Maybe its not really meant for you to know and not really meant for me to tell.. Till the next time we meet.. I will always be here for you just give me a call.. I’ve finished the video with your song on its background kea lang naka tago lng sakin yung copy... I will always be your angel watching you from this horizon.. ingatan mo sarili mo lagi.. para kong sira kinakausap ka dito.. enweiz syempre alam ko naman na hindi mo mababasa to eh.. kaya malakas ang loob ko..  

so long.. until next time.. see you when i see you

Thursday, June 30, 2011 at 4:18pm

When people grow up priorities change... just like feelings and emotions... it changes... It doesn’t mean that if you don’t feel something for each other anymore the love is gone cause if love is really an emotion why is there such thing as lasting...

 Love can sometimes turn you numb or even me boring you just have to be patient.. coz love itself is life not all the times you went in all its happiness, sometimes you also have to give in to its bitterness… but no matter what… as long as you choose and decide to continue it will be more beautiful

 

You were there in front of me

Crying on your knees

I try to reach out for you

But you were gone suddenly

Oh what did I just do?

I hurt you so badly

I guess the blame is on me

 

I never want to see you crying

But you ought to know something

Things weren’t the same

The way they were before

Were heading on the different way

And before we knew it

Were both standing on different ends?

 

And From this horizon

The only things left for me to do

Is to look at you

Asking myself constantly

Am I going on the right path?

Can I still find my way back…

 

I love you… I really do…

But why I am pushing you

It’s for the both of us to grow

I’m sorry for being thoughtless

I’m sorry for all the pain I caused you

And mostly for giving up on you

 

 

 

 

 

 

I thought everything will be running smooth between us... We survived the whole day with out having an argument… but what could be worst on having a fight in front of my family… it’s a shame for the both of us.

 

I remember last month you did the same thing but what’s the difference? You did it in front of my family you said you can’t control your temper...ok I understand, but you know what... I think that was bullshit!!! Sa harap ng mga kaibigan ko pinahiya mu ko ok pa sakin yon... but in front of my parents is the most awful thing you did!

I really don’t know what to feel.. nangliliit ko sa sarili ko, ayoko umuwi sa bahay ayoko maramdamn na lahat ng mata nila nkatingin sakin, ayoko maalala yung nangyari kagabi, pero alm mo kung ano? Every word you said ngsusumigaw pa rin sa utak ko hanggang ngayon every detailed paulit ulit ngfflash back sakin.. halos durugin mo cellphone at baliin mga daliri ko para kunin yon dahil lang sa pghihinala mu. Paulit ulit mo ko pingtataasan ng boses n para bang tayong dalawa lng.. sinasaktan mo pa ko dahil di ako sumasagot sayo, sa palagay mu ba sasagot ako sayo kung sa simula pa lang sinigawan mo na ko.. I tried to be casual para maitago kung ano man yung pinagdadaanan natin pareho.

 

Pede mo ko kausapin ng mahinahon, sumusunod naman ako pagtinawag mo eh..

Alam mo kung ano nararamdamn ko ngayon? Anguish! Galit nag galit ako syo!

Hindi mo ko kelangan sigawan hindi mo ko kailangan saktan para lang magsalita

Kausapin mo ko ng maayos mgsasabi ako. Gusto mo ako magsalita pero di mo naman ako pinakikinggan, gusto mo ako mgexplain pero di ka naman naniniwala

 

Wag ka magtaka kung bakit hindi ako nagsasalita.. wag ka mgtaka kung bakit hindi mo mabasa ang takbo ng utak ko at maintindihan kung ano ang nararamdamn ko, wag mo isumbat sakin ang lahat dahil hindi mo alam kung gano rin kahirap ang pinagdadaanan ko wag mo isisi sakin ang lahat kung bakit tayo ngkaganito masuwerte ka dahil kaya mo ilabas kung ano ang nararamdamn mo pero ako nandito lang sa loob ko hindi ko alam kung pano ko iexpress nahihirapan na ko minsan parang bibigay na ko sa lahat ng panunumbat na ibinabato mo sakin pinipilit ko intindihin at tinatanggap ko lang yon lahat dahil alm ko nasaktan kita ng sobra…. Sana alam mo nasasaktan din ako… kaya lng hindi ko masabi sayo ang lahat ng ito kaya dito kung saan Malaya ako iexpress ang nararamdamn ko..  

 

ayoko ng ganto nalulunod ako sa galit  na nararamdaman ko.. 

 

 

Lord please guide me and enlighten me. Make my heart filled not with anguish but with love and forgiveness. Let my eyes see not the negative but the reason for everything let my ears hear not the yelling but the good words she said and let my mind remembers not what happened last night but her smile and all the memories we’ve shared....

 

 

By: Angelita_Doodle

 

All alone I search the world for answers,

To my sorrows and pains unto this darkness.

But instead I found a friend,

A partial gift from God who answers my prayers.

 

At first I was hesitant to get to know you

‘coz I thought I might cause some disruption

But now as I get to know you,

I saw a different side of you.

 

Your smile provided me

An ever constant path and rhythm

Like a river, peaceful and deeper as it can be

Flowing through its course like it has never been.

 

You give me courage, you give me strength

As I walk my way in this lonely winding road

And as our paths crossed, my scars recovered

This excruciating pain I feel inside are now being mended

 

You made me see things in bright perspective,

And makes me think of my new beginnings…

So I am thankful to have you as a friend,

I assure that you can count on me ‘til the end.

 

When I go someplace else,

Hope you won’t be wary and sad

‘Coz I will always be here for you

Like no one will ever should.

 

If you need someone to talk to, just send me a flare

From a certain distance, I will surely discern

In return for all your kindness and reverence

I’ll be your angel, guiding you in your struggles…

 

 

àI Will miss you and that’s for sure… cgro baka  maiiyak p ko pgalis mu..

 

àSows, magkaiyakan p tau ne2 ha… T_T nyehehehehe tsaka susunod k rin nman e at sbe mu kpag nalolongkot ka db punta k dun.. nyahhahaha

 

àIpost mu n s blog ko.. oo pupunthan kita dun.. saka pgnmiss mo ko.. kse ala ng mangaasar xo..  tatabi lng ko xo tas tas uwi n ko pg ok n ko.. hahahah… hintayin mu ko dun.. ampunin mu ko.. hehehehe….

 

àSasagot p 2 d2.. hahahah kakalokah! Uu cge ampunin kita… ikaw nga jan, ala n mang-aalaska sau kpag umalis ako.. hehehe kinakabahan tlga ako… hehehe sna maging ok nman pagpunta ko dun

 

àSows mgiging ok yon.. for sure… U just have to believe God Is Good Always.. mamimiss kita... no matter the distance… you will always be my angel and I will always be yours..

 

" I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel"